me no in a happy mood. . . Over the past few days i have noticed more and more that. . .i have no friends or barely any. . . Really, I have one friend, but she is so busy with studing that we dont hang out as much as we use to. . . so she is slowly turning into an aquantance. . to conclude. . . i have no friends

And everyone tells me i should not worry, that it will be a while before i get firends, so tell me why so maybe ppl have friends already? my roomate even has loads of friends that come over alot! So, that to me is shit.

Idk wat to do. I am trying to talk to ppl almost everyday, texting. I go to school clubs and I talk with poeple in my classes. My roomate hates me, she always breaks the conversation short. WHAT IS IT THAT PEOPLE CAN BE FRIENDS SO QUICKLY?!?!?!? WTF!!!

What bothers me the most is that even people i know have friends. . and they dont have time to talk to me. . ;-; that makes me even more lonley. Yes i know that is selfish but that is how i feel.

And now that i have my month thing. . . everything is worst. I even tried today. I called like 7 girls i knew for lunch and all of them turned me down . . ;-; and i tried txting one person now. . . but not answering and the two other people i asked had stuff to do too. . . . .

I am DOOMED to live alone in college. . . no firends. . .no one to hang. . no one to study with or help me out. . . no one to eat with. . . on one to share rooms with later. . .. I HAVE NOONE!!!!!!

*cries deeply*

ps. dont tell aaron, this will get him upset and i dont want to cause him more grief and dont want to be a bother. >.<

And if u tell, i can find u. and u will be srry!